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The Dream
00:59
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Do Or Die
03:15
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On my way to become a middle-finger to myself
I paid the fees and charges for the blood I carry in my veins
Whenever there is hope, we’re bound to find denial
I wasn’t made to last
I’m getting nowhere fast
Made my decision to have no choice
Cornered myself to do or die
It’s proven fact that lies will protect you from the truth
No need to think, no need to choose, they will do it all for you
So we bow our heads and no one dares to question
We follow and obey
God-given will to choose in full use
To become slaves
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Locked in my 9 to 5, monday through friday
Imprisoned and waiting to die
I watch myself become another lie
Adding up to build a grey wall of under-achievers
No
We are the working class who don’t produce
We got nowhere else to go
We got nothing else to do
Providers of a service that doesn’t serve any use
We’re being used
Fucked and abused
There’s no pride in what we do
There’s no shame in how hard we try
We just want to make something out of ourselves
And that’s exactly how we got trapped
I’ve joined the ranks of hopeless dreamers
We march down singing in a pathetic parade
They put a price to our hopes and dreams
So that at the end of every month we just can’t afford them
We celebrate the passing of every miserable day
Failing to realize it just brings us one step closer to nowhere
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4. |
Useless Revolution
02:50
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Believing is a gift for those who cannot see
Blindfolding my third eye will not make me submit
This heart is equal parts of love, hate & deceit
It's time to rid the world of all the things you did
Asking the right questions to all the wrong answers
Reaping what you sow, and hiding under the radar
Rape of the design, narcotic and divine
It's oh, so fucking obvious it's almost worth my time
Another inconsistency in your set of rules
This is my useless revolution and i'm coming after you
Can you hear me breathing?
I think i'm almost done
Dripping from my mouth, your blood sweat and tears
This time you're on your own, let's see how you survive
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5. |
What Is Left
03:20
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They say you can see yourself in the eyes of those who love you
But every time i look i find the same fucking disappointment
We tried things your way
We tried things my way
What’s left for us now?
She doesn’t mean any harm, she’s just protecting herself
The purest act of self defense
To try and keep her heart from being broken
I’d love to go back and do it all over again
Not to change the future
But to be stuck in the past for good
What’s the point of growing up if you’re forced to become someone you hate?
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6. |
No Permission
03:36
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I buried my hope on the other side of the world
She’s not a part of my luggage, I’m leaving her at home
I want a fucking adventure
I want some fucking wrong
I wanna feel like there’s something worth living for
The best things happen at the worst time
Don’t ask for permission
You know I’m not yours and I know you’re not mine
We don’t need no permission
Show me all your tricks and all your treats
Confess all of your sins
I’ll give us something to pray to
I wasn’t put on this earth to forgive
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7. |
The Muse
02:28
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I can see you become
The center of attention
Shine to reflect perversion
With a sad glimpse in your eyes
Two worlds of misconception
Success and what it’s made for
I paid for my admission
And now i wanna get out
Don’t stray from the fact
It’s all a fucking act
I’m just a filthy reject
Ready to be stabbed in the back
Behind that little smile
The speech is still a lie
That you’ve been denied in heaven
And hell has just sold out
Play it like a virgin
Pray to be the muse
This art is not contagious
The infection’s coming from you
So scratch that itch
And tear off your skin
I’m dragging you down with me
There’s nothing you can do
Attached by my umbilical cord
Tied tight to our souls
She likes it
And that’s why I stop
I start to enjoy myself
As soon as you pleasure ends
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8. |
I Need You
04:51
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My heart is now the doormat
Of a brand new home
Where I've become another person
I wouldn't bother talking to on the phone
If this is the right thing to do
How come it feels so wrong?
If this is who i'm supposed to be
Why don't i feel at home?
I need you to be who you were
I need you to be who you were
The girl I fell in love with
The woman of my dreams
The one I would kill myself with
That's who i need you to be
I'm right back where I started
Looking down that road
I know that I must walk it through
But I just don't want to do it alone
I see myself trapped behind the lies
Trying to escape
But the advice of those who know best
Is to put that part of me to rest
No one ever told me
That I'd have to tear a hole in my soul
To fit in this so-called happiness
And leave room for some bits of love
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9. |
Take The Blame
01:44
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Fantasy dies when you open your eyes
The undeniable truth is that this is all a lie
Whatever you create, they put a label and price
Given the chance they’d sell your soul one piece at a time
I have no time to believe in all the things that I question
I only want to be free from all your fucking obsessions
Like it or not, this is my redemption
And I never really gave a fuck about perfection
No apologies
No regrets
Every time you curse my existence
I’ll take the blame for being me
Every time you call me failure
I’ll take the blame for being me
Every time you turn your head around
I’ll take the blame for being me
Every time you feel disgusted
I’ll take the blame for being me
The spirit is loose to do as he’s pleased
Face-deep between the legs of your needs
Another example of words versus will
One life is enough, just fucking leave me be
No apologies
No fucking regrets
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For every action I take
The reaction is a mistake
No matter how many times I try to apologize
I have nothing to be sorry about
Join the defined and quit the divine
Dragged every step of the way
Convinced I am nothing like them
Betrayed
Left behind
Losing grip
Falling down
I’ll give it all to you
Once I figure out what the fuck it is you want
Can’t hold on
Can’t go back
Feeding my own self-loathing ego
I’m numb to how I feel
Fuck the challenge, only death is real
Being part of the team ain’t as bad as it seems
Feeling so warm is this denial
Fucked by my own messiah
My heart has fallen victim of this blind belief
Crucified on a microphone stand
Dragged every step of the way
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I'm gonna fuck your sunshine away
You will only see the light of your burning soul
And what I'm feeding you this time
Is another fucking lie
You don't care it's not the first
You just love to believe it
No more threats from left and right
There's no one left to fight
Because you've been defeated
Rewrite your twisted little bible
Make me a saint for your lost cause
And we continue to believe
We continue to deceive
We continue to delude ourselves into thinking we're right
We won the fight
But look around
Is this what victory looks like?
Carve a smile on your fucking face
As we erase the whole human race
It's just you and me
Like Adam & Eve
We gotta start all over again
I'll always be the one saying something
When there's nothing left to say
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So what if i wanna be the worst I can possibly be?
Fail at health, money and love
Fail at life once and for all
I lost before i gambled
The odds are all against me
I’m a safe bet to bet against
Because I wanna lose
Demand an explanation
A fucking better education
I have no expectations
Or hope to improve
I only feel like a winner when I’m defeated
Bruises are the only trophies I display with pride
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13. |
Waiting To Die
01:34
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My season is over and it has been for way too long
It’s time to reach inside, give birth to a new soul
No matter how many times I’m perfect
I’ll never be close to good in your eyes
Of all the things life has to offer, there’s nothing I can afford
Seems nothing was cut out for me
It seems that i’m the perfect reject
No matter how many times I’m perfect
I’ll never be close to good in your eyes
The fuel becomes a poison
As I sit here waiting to die
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14. |
Pride In Mediocrity
02:44
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Isolate the offensive
Doesn’t matter what I say
Isolate the offensive
When nobody’s listening
The potential for failure clouds our perfect days
I can’t make a promise that I don’t intend to break
I’m already the worst i can be
The effort will always be valued
As bad as I can look in the eyes of your god
Nothing compares to when I’m looked upon by you
So i’ll make a little effort
I’ll become another lie
I’ll be just another number that adds up to nothing in life
And I know right now you hate me
There is nothing I can do
So fuck all my excuses
This is all i’ll ever be, no matter what I do
Fuck you
Fuck you, fuck me, fuck everybody who cares
Just an easy life, you win
I have no choice but to give in
You’ll never hate me as much as I hate myself
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15. |
Leaving The Dream
03:56
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Watching the hours, the minutes, the seconds go by as I
Fueled by desire
I buried myself so deep I left the bottom behind
How many times did I promise myself this is how it would end?
And now I surrender
Gift-wrapped and willing, with a smile on my face
I tried to be myself
I tried to be who i thought you wanted
I tried to beat success
By taking pride in just trying
And now it’s time to say goodbye
It’s time to say goodbye
As I leave the dream
Carrying the burden
To fill up the void left by all my attempts
Discarded and naked
Curled up in the corner of who I might have been
Hanging by a thread
And each of your words is sharp as a knife
I’m at peace with my fears
And now it’s time to say goodbye
And if all of my fantasies and all my desires make you sick
I will understand
If all the things i keep to myself just to fit in were to blow up
Would you understand?
I’m gonna sell each and every one of my illusions
So i can set up my soul’s retirement fund
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Gabe Toxic Ciudad Autónoma De Buenos Aires, Argentina
Gabe Toxic writes, produces and performs all instruments on all tracks, unless stated otherwise. This doesn't make him talented, it just makes him lonely.
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